COWBOY UP!

It has been a CRAZY 2 weeks! I've written 2 research papers (12-15 pages each, one on the Person of Jesus Christ in the Qur'an. the other on the healing and life giving touches of faith in the story of Jairus, his daughter, and the woman who had been bleeding for 12 years.) 2 down...one paper still to write before Friday! But...it's not a research paper, just a 7-10 page devotional. And I'll use the same research as I used for the paper about Jesus' healing touch. Feeling a LOT more relaxed these days!


I got to enjoy a great evening last night with the COWBOY in this picture and others in the lifegroup we are a part of in Arlington. Daniel is a part of the college ministry to UTA students through Grace Community Church. His lifegroup is great. Last night we went out to a family's house who have a big open field with a barn and a couple of horses, a playhouse, trampoline, swimming pool! It was KIDDIE HEAVEN, that's for sure! And there were several little kids running around (not to mention big kids!!) It was a great night of fellowship as well as worship. We sat out underneath a blanket of stars, thinking on God. Dialoguing a bit about faith.

Think about this. The God, CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE, who put the stars in their place and knows each of them by name, who, with the command of His voice set this world into motion, desires to have INTIMACY with us. We live in one of many galaxies. We can't even understand just how big our galaxy is. We live on a planet that sits just so perfectly at a distance from the sun that we neither burn nor freeze. And it's this SAME GOD who knows every detail of my thoughts, every aching of my heart, every joy that can hardly contain itself inside of me! Have you thought about that lately? The AWESOMENESS of God is a bit hard to fathom, to comprehend, but OH HOW GREAT it is to be loved and cared for by such a GOD!!!

the GoOdNeSs of God Almighty

The wind. We can't see it, but we know it is there. We feel it.

God. We can't see Him, but we know He's there. We feel Him.

I'm so thankful for the way the Lord uses His children to show me His love, His grace, His faithfulness, His forgiveness, His joy, His peace, His desire to take care of His children, His heart for the nations.

I praise Him today for His passionate pursuit of His little girl. Teaching me to better understand His character in greater depth.

"If you're happy and you know it, show your teeth..."

Last night I met some of Daniel's friends at the bible study he has at his house on Sunday nights. It was fun to be in his world, with his friends, getting to know them and watching him interact with them. Good times.



The Lord is good. He is good in His faithfulness, good in His love, good in hard times, good in good times. The Lord is my Strong Tower. He is my Refuge. He is my Strength. He is the Joy of my heart. He is the Passion of my soul. He is the Song on my lips. Praise Him, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

Be blessed in His love and grace today. May Christ be your "more than enough" today!

Mohamed and Ahmed

Continue praying for Mohamed and Ahmed. Ahmed's little legs are getting stronger and he is showing signs of improvement.

Pray too for Sabah. I believe God is doing an amazing work in her and that the Holy Spirit is moving in her heart. Just this past week I got to share with her about how the Lord has really spoken clearly to me in this past month as I have been fasting and praying for a specific request. The concept of me fasting and praying was especially interesting to her at this time because Muslims are in the middle of the month of Ramadan. As I shared with her about my fast and prayer time with the Lord, she wanted to know how I heard from the Lord. It was such a blessed time with her!! I praise God for what He is doing in their lives! Pray that the Spirit would teach her the truth of Jesus Christ!

May you walk in the grace, peace, and love of Jesus Christ today and be His hands, feet, and voice to someone around you today! Bless you!

HiGhLiGhTs fRoM tHiS wEeKeNd

It was a good weekend! Kristin, a girl friend of mine from YEARS back, had her engagement announcement party this weekend in Ruston. For those familiar with Ruston, you can probably imagine what it was like! Lots of people, all made up - makeup, hair in place, new outfit, - smiles and laughs. Katie, a friend from college who is now living in Dallas, and I drove to Ruston together Friday afternoon, went to the engagement party, went to a shower Saturday morning, and came home on Saturday afternoon. We weren't even in Ruston for 24 hours!

Of course I was so glad to be a part of this special time for Kristin and very glad to get to spend some good time with Katie, but one of the biggest highlights was seeing Anna. We lived together for 3 years when we were in college. Since then, the times we've seen one another have just not been enough! While I was in Egypt, she moved to Baton Rouge. Visits to Ruston for both of us are usually packed with family time. But...this weekend, though we only saw each other at the announcement party, it was a breath of fresh air. You know those friends of yours who have been in your life for so long that they know so much about you? I've realized that since my move to Egypt, there haven't been tons of people around me who know me like an old friend knows you. Anna knows that when I go to Taco Bell, I order a mexican pizza - ALWAYS. She knows that when I was in high school I was incredibly insecure about the scrawniness of my legs. So much so that I always asked my friends if my calf muscles looked any bigger! We can look at each other from across a crowded room and guess the thoughts of the other! HOW MANY FRIENDS DO YOU HAVE LIKE THAT?!?!??! Oh, it was SO GOOD to see her!!

And God's blessings and joys didn't end there this weekend - with old friends. No, He's given me new friends as well, or should I say a new friend. He is a man of God, passionate for the nations. Passionate for cultures and languages. Passionate for the glory of God. He is a gift from the Lord. Our Lord's blessings are numerous and I am so undeserving! He is a generous God. He is a good God. He is a loving God. He is a just God. He gives. He takes away. He loves unconditionally. He gives joy to His children. He shows us grace and mercy. My heart is so grateful. He blows me away with His great love!

But...it is not for His blessings that we are to love Him. No, we are to love Him. Period. Not "love Him because...", but "love Him." My prayer is just that - that I wouldn't love God because of what He blesses me with or what He is teaching me, but that I would love God because He is GOD! That I would love God. Period.

Nothing Like Waking Up Next to Mohamed and Ahmed...

At 26 years old, I sometimes wonder, "God, why in the world am I still single? Why in the world have you not brought my Prince Charming my way?" It's nothing I dwell on, but of course the thoughts run through my mind occasionally, especially since almost all of my friends from high school and college are married and some are beginning families! It's so crazy how though we are all the same age, we are all at such different places in life.

However, I PRAISE GOD for where I am in life! I have seen much of this world, I have fallen in love with cultures - and I'm learning it's not only the Egyptian culture that I love, but any culture. It's all so intriguing to me! He has undeniably given me a heart for the nations and I get excited to get to be a part of the lives of those whose ethnic background differs from mine.

I am a part of something bigger than myself, bigger than what can be seen by the naked eye. And though we don't always understand why we are where we are, He does. He has planned it all out. If we would just TRUST in Him, the days would pass by much more stresfree!

Today, October 10, 2005, I am living in Fort Worth, TX. In January of this year, when I first moved to Fort Worth, I came here with a deep love for Arabs, esepcially Egyptians. Because of the two years I lived in Egypt, God gave me an emmense love for the Egyptian people. I sought out Egyptians and found Ahmed, Mohamed, Sabah, and Ibrahim at the Muslim feast in Arlington. God has developed a beautiful friendship between this family and me. I learned last night when I went to break fast with them, that they will be returning to Egypt at the end of November. My heart broke - I've fallen in love with Ahmed and Mohamed. But, I know that Egypt is their home. They have an older brother and sister there whom they have not seen for 3 years. I knew this time was coming, their days in America would end. I'm thankful for the time I have had with them. Last night Sabah asked me to spend the night with them. And of course, I did! In the hours I spent with the family last night, I layed hands over the boys and prayed healing over Ahmed's legs and over Mohamed's somewhat paralyzed right hand. I ask the God of the Universe, our Great Physician to heal those boys. In the powerful name of Jesus, I prayed healing over the boys. I prayed revelation of Himself to the family. Sabah always listens intently. She sometimes has questions.

I slept in a double bed last night beside Mohamed and Ahmed. Both boys were asleep when I got in bed. I spent the next half hour or so praying over them, praying over their house, asking the Holy Spirit to dwell in their home. I believe His presence will linger there, even in my absence. He is penetrating the darkness.

I woke up this morning and Mohamed cuddled up next to me and kissed me. We layed there, me holding him, while Sabah gave Ahmed a bath. Mohamed took a bath. I helped them get dressed, fed them their breakfast while Sabah showered. The boys and I sat there and I sang to them. I've been teaching them, "Jesus loves me" and I sang an Arabic worship song to them, "Enta Azeemun" (You [God] are great). Mohamed reqeusted for me to sing "Adeemun", as he says it, again. Oh, that God would grow these two little boys up to be fearers of the Lord of lords and King of kings. That the life and breath He has given them would be used for His glory, for His kingdom's expansion!! GOD SAVE THIS FAMILY!!!

I thank You, oh God, for this season in my life. If I had my own husband, my own family right now, I would have missed this opportunity. I would have missed waking up next to Mohamed and Ahmed.

A Month of Fasting

Today is the first day of Ramadan...the month Muslims remember the month in which Mohammed received the Qu'ran. I called my friends in Egypt this morning to wish them a "Happy Ramadan". Of course they know I do not celebrate this, but it is a holiday and a special month for them. It was nice to hear their voices. I told Shu Shu, "I am praying for you even more during this month that you would know the Truth of Who God is." She said, "Thank you."



During this month as Muslims fast from sunrise to sunset, would you join me in prayer for them? Pray that they would see dreams and visions of Jesus Christ. Pray that they would encounter God in a mighty way and that they would struggle with questions of their faith during this "holy" month. Many Muslims who have converted to following Christ testify that God did a mighty work in them during the month of Ramadan. As they sought to be closer to God and deprived themselves of food during this month, God gave them dreams and visions of His Son in white, welcoming them to 'Come unto Him.' Ask BIG THINGS of our BIG GOD and watch as He brings His kingdom here on earth!

A few specific names to pray for: Amira and family; Shu Shu and family; Salwa and family; Ahmed, Mohamed, Sabah and Ibraham; my class of Somali students in Arlington; my class of Somali Bantu students in Fort Worth. THANK YOU FOR STANDING IN THE GAP FOR THESE!

our Great Physician

Writing to ask for prayers of healing. I've mentioned before the Egyptian family currently living in Dallas. I've been ministering to them since February and have found precious friendship in them. I love the little boys - Ahmed and Mohammed. I'd love to show you a picture of us, but out of respect for the family, I will not post it on my blog. They are all over the net, though, so if you'd like to picture the little face you are praying for, you can see their pictures at http://www.medicalcityhospital.com/custompage.asp?pagename=egyptian_twins_images . I've just looked through all of them, with tears in my eyes to see how they've grown and I just KNOW that God has a special purpose for these little boys whom He has chosen to save and breathe life into.

So what is the healing that is needed? Well, Mohammed has been walking now for months and gets along just great on his own. However, Ahmed does not yet walk. He only crawls. He crawls well and walks with assistance. When I was talking with Sabah, their mother, earlier this week, I asked her about Ahmed and his progress in walking. She said, "Kim, Salilo l ino yemshy," which means, "Kim, pray for him that he walks." God touched my heart with her words. She sees something powerful in my prayers. The time and love I have given to them has been reflecting our God. Praise Him! Glory to Him. I decided that day to pray that God, our Healer and Great Physician, would touch Ahmed's legs, give them strength to walk, and all the other things that accompany his body's understanding of walking would also be touched by our Healer IN THE NEXT 3-4 WEEKS. Please pray this with me. Pray for healing from Jesus. Pray in confidence that God will hear our prayers and answer them.

When Peter and Paul prayed over the sick and needy in Acts, he always prayed with power. He was annointed. We see in Acts 3:1-10 the healing of a lame man. He had been lame from birth and everyday was carried to the gate Beautiful so that he could beg. He asked Peter for help that day. Peter called the man to look at him and John and said, I have neither silver nor gold, but what I have, I give to you: In the name of Jesus Christ the Nazarene, get up and walk!" And we see immediately that Peter took the man by the hand, raised him up, and AT ONCE his feet and ankles became strong. He not only walked, he jumped, he leaped, and he praised God!!!

May God make Ahmed's legs strong, that he will jump, and leap, and praise God.

To God be the glory great things He has done!!!

Sovereignty and Love

Psalm 115:3
But our God is in the heavens;
He does whatever He pleases.

Is this verse a bit scary or unsettling? In some ways, it is to me. Why does it scare you and me? Beth Moore suggests that maybe this passage is unsettling is because we don't fully understand His love.

Psalm 21:7
For the king trusts in the Lord,
And through the lovingkindness of the Most High he will not be shaken.

Moore also suggests that God's sovereignty can terrify us only to the extent that we are uncertain of His love. Only to the extent that we abide in His love can we be comforted by His sovereignty.

There are areas of my life that I haven't fully trusted God with...areas in which I have dreams unfilled. His sovereignty is scary to me in that area because I don't understand why he hasn't fulfilled my hopes and dreams in that specific area. However, I have to ask myself, "Do I really trust in His love for me? Do I really trust that He is in control and cares about the details of my life? Do I really trust that He has a plan for my future?" If I did, I wouldn't be unsettled by these unfufilled dreams, rather I would be joyful in all circumstances.

How about you? Is Psalm 115:3 scary or unsettling for you? Do you KNOW the full extent of His love?

separated for sanctification

I just began Beth Moore's study on the Patriarchs. In the first 4 days of the study, I am learning so very much. A theme has been the concept of separtation for sanctification. Abram, when asked to separate himself from his family and go to an unknown land, began a process of sanctification, for God had promised him that he would be the father of many nations and that all nations, thru him would be blessed. Does God use one who has not been sanctified to bless all nations of the world? I doubt it!

This concept along with some thoughts from the well-known passage of Isaiah 6, a look at the life of Christ, and some words of wisdom from a good friend of mine have led me to this search for separation and sanctification in my own life. After all, before Isaiah cried out, "Here am I Lord, send me," his lips were burned with coal so that he would be purified. He was separated from his sin by the tongs of fire which purified his lips. Before Jesus began His ministry He was separated from all of those around Him as He spent time in the desert. (I'm not suggesting that Christ needed to be sanctified...He is God Almighty...but He too spent time in separation before He began His ministry.

Just a little something He is teaching me...before I can be most effective in ministry to those around me, He wants to separate me, to purify me, to sanctify me that my life would be different. From that difference, others would be drawn to Christ.

This is what He's been teaching me and the areas in which I'm praying right now. May He gorw you and change you to better reflect His glory in your daily lives. Though we are often times a bad representation of Him, I thank Him so much that He desires to refine us - it may hurt, it may burn like the tongs of fire, but He is our Potter, we are the clay. May we be moldable...may we be separated for His Glory!